In principle, I like working.
And I hate doing nothing at home.
(I'm not meant to be a housewife like some Japanese)
Also, I searched my master trainer during 1 month (it was not obvious).
Therefore, I was really thirsty work.
Despite all this, now I'm not too keen on going to work.
Why?
First, I still can not take the initiative to work while it's been three weeks since I worked in the bakery.
course, since I am a beginner baker and a new employee, it is normal not to have the initiative.
But it's very very tiring to ask, whenever I finish a job that I was loaded, what I do.
course, essential tasks like washing dishes and tidying up, I make them before we wonder.
But that's not enough.
Suddenly, there is a time gap between the end of a task and the start of another task that is entrusted to me.
A pastry before was a little more organized.
There were lists of cake shops which need today.
Besides the cakes, my manager told me what we should prepare for this day.
Every day, I knew roughly what one would do.
So when I did not know what to do, I took the initiative to prepare what we would do afterwards.
Here there is neither a word nor lists of top, I do not know what I'll do that day.
I can not bear to be dependent on someone reluctantly, actually I'm kind of initiative.
Second, there is a relaxed atmosphere too.
This may be a good advantage for someone else but not for me!
I do not like being in a place of work.
Whatever I do the decoration or manufacturing, it tells me all the time " Well done" or "Not bad."
is not possible, I'm not perfect!
I need a board, a reprimand or a comment.
I'm still happy to have been welcomed, however, to further, I not only practice such thing, but we must always try to make sure not to repeat the same mistake as small pastry experienced made me noticed.
The accumulation of these efforts makes me progress.
When I made a remark, although I'm secretly nervous (= hope), I know that these remarks from my superiors play a vital role in my progress.
Unlike the pastry before, I feel I have no time constraints, no finesse, or speed, nor the hygiene etc. ...
Before, it was hard but a certain tension phychologic gave me the strength to work.
There is already routine.
I'm too relaxed, as if I was home, tired of doing nothing.
(Since I have a lot of time waiting!)
Frankly, I prefer to work in depth by being stressed and just feel tired after work, rather than being tired for the job without stress (I can say it's more stressful!).
And finally, I can not love the products I did.
is serious.
One day, my in-laws asked me if their cakes are good.
I said, "No, I do not even try"
After delivering this phase without thinking, I was very ashamed ...
is too bad that I said !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But hey, it's reality.
their ingredients, how they work and their health gives me no desire to eat.
Obviously, I am seriously demotivating.
Basically, I make cakes to make customers happy.
It's a pastry chef!
a matter of duty, I try to decorate the finest possible, manufactured with the greatest possible care.
short, I decided from that box.
The problem is that I can not tell the boss what I just described, and I have to find another master.
Deeply the end of this contract!
